Real Life

I didn't think that going back to real life would be so hard. Why routine has been so difficult. At the beginning of this week, I just wanted to stay curled up in bed. BUT, work calls. And I have to answer. The question of "So how are you?" is so difficult to answer. Or the unaware people who ask "How was your holiday?" Well.....as a matter of fact....Ugh. One of the sweet sweet ladies I work with gave me a hug and said - "His picture made him look like such a fun guy. Tell me about him." That was just what I needed! Thanks Cathy! But, it is amazing to realize how my Jesus is sustaining me through each day.

Yesterday morning was opening up to be particularly hard...no specific reason. Maybe because of a lack of sleep, maybe because I knew the memorial in Bozeman was happening and I couldn't be there. Maybe something else. But after I finished getting ready for the day and walked out to the kitchen, I stopped and looked up. I saw the most amazing and beautiful sunrise. The colors were incredible...the Painter had made a masterpiece! I couldn't help thinking of the song "Beautiful" by Phil Whickham.

"I see your face in every sunrise, the colors of the morning are inside your eyes.

The world awakens in the light of the day, I look up to the sky and say You're beautiful."

In that moment, there was nothing else I could do but praise the Creator! I sat at the kitchen table, staring at the sky. And then my Jesus blessed me again. A Christmas gift from a dear friend of mine was a "Cup of Love." It's a huge coffee mug filled with verses about love. As I was reveling in the beauty of the morning and grieving that Anthony wasn't sitting there with me, I picked this verse out of the cup:

"Now may the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God..."

2 Thessalonians 3:5

Wow. My Jesus loves me so much...He knew I needed the beauty of that sunrise. He knew I needed a reminder to direct my heart toward His love. What an amazing wonderful God I serve.

It's these little things that I know will get me and Chris from one day to the next. The moments that God reminds us who He is and what He is about. So, lets all take notice of the small blessings in life...the beauty of a sunrise, the smile and hug of a child, the note from a friend, the scripture you so desperately needed to read...and praise our God of Love for being who He is.